November 30, 2009 - Today

Today was pretty hard, when I woke up to find that he had taken me off F as well, I just couldn't stop crying..I felt so horrible.  I am glad that he did put me back on..

It's been weird picking clothing and stuff in the morning, I always tried to dress in a manner that he would like, to please him.  I don't know what to do with myself, I feel very alone.  I've barely eaten, the food even though it smells good, just doesn't interest me and it's an effort to chew it, so I have a couple of bites and that's it.  Liquids seem to be okay though.

Nothing is of interest to me right now, I tried to delete my profile on the dating site..but I couldn't figure it out so I hid it instead..

I miss him...